wild geese

margueritatoldtom:

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting—
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

- Mary Oliver

thetangential:

Oh wow, I can’t believe I’ve already been in __place__ for __length of time__. Things are so different here. Don’t get me wrong, I love it. But what I wouldn’t give for just one __totally average American thing__. You wouldn’t believe how hard those are to find around here.

Last night I…

PRETTY MUCH!

i was doing yoga yesterday and a cockroach scurried up my leg. sometimes, i just really wanna get back to minnesota.

heyyy

i have an excess of energy on this exciting friday night, so i thought i’d throw some updates on this neglected blog.

well, i’m alive. i saw a snake. it was dead, but it was also on the university campus, which makes it very frightening. this was one of several bad omens leading up to a semi-disastrous hike in the hills behind the university last weekend. basically, we were driven out of the dark, damp, trail-less forest by leeches - the same leeches that prevented the british (or the dutch, or the portegueses) from conquering the kandyan kingdom until the 1800s. so yeah. if olde timey soldiers couldn’t handle it, i guess i shouldn’t have expected be up to the challenge. i got out of that forest as quickly as i could, and high tailed it to a fancy-schmancy tea center in kandy.

in other valley girl news, i visited two salons weekend for highlights, eyebrow threading, and a shampoo & condition treatment that was the height of luxury. this, and two visits to pizza hut for molten chocolate cake and cappucinno, have been the highlights (hah!) of the past week. (okay i have to amend that because i got an amazing package full of chocolate and other goodies from the fam. definitely a high point)

but there have been woes! this program is a mess! finals are a mess! independent study planning was a mess! i have about five million papers to write, two exams to take, some kind of seminar to participate in (?), and of course, an independent research project to propose and present. yipeee. but, i’m keeping my head above water with strategic venting sessions with my comrades in the struggle, and by listening to the new rihanna song over and over again. so it’s all gonna be okay! right??

here’s an awkward situation for you to enjoy: wednesday (as some of you may know) was diwali, a major hindu holiday. so we trooped our clueless white selves over to a local hindu temple to observe the festivities. which meant walking into the middle of a ritual attended by a bunch of presumably tamil, not sinhala, speaking Hindus who had no idea who we are or what in the world we were doing at their temple. since we had no one with us who knew anything about diwali, we stood in the wrong places (i stood on the male side of the temple, awkward!) and generally looked lost and confused. mostly, i looked at the women’s outfits. you’re supposed to wear new clothes on diwali, so there were lots of beautiful saris on display. things improved when temple attendants brought trays of flowers, powders of some kind  to smear on your forehead, and some actually really delicious food. we were given all these things as if we we actually knew what we were doing, and by the end of things, i actually didn’t feel completely out of place! in the end it was a cool experience, and if nothing else, it considerably increased my tolerance for awkward situations. 

so there you are, some random reports from my on-going “adventure” in the sri sri. 

here we are exhausted from a day of laying in the sun, about to eat delicious sea food and watch the sun go down over the ocean. it was like really romantic. 
(also that’s a g & t i’m drinking, i win.)

here we are exhausted from a day of laying in the sun, about to eat delicious sea food and watch the sun go down over the ocean. it was like really romantic. 

(also that’s a g & t i’m drinking, i win.)

… and then, i spent my birthday weekend here. 
at hikkaduwa, which is usually a crowded tourist beach but because it was the off season, it was pretty much empty most of the day.
the beach was great, but the real highlight of the weekend was drinking actual for real coffee - actually an amazing iced espresso concoction - at this strange italian place across the street from our guesthouse. and also wine. i drank wine. it was glorious.
sadly, i managed to get the worst sunburn i’ve ever had in my life there - i’m still red & all my skin is peeling off, it’s cute. 

… and then, i spent my birthday weekend here. 

at hikkaduwa, which is usually a crowded tourist beach but because it was the off season, it was pretty much empty most of the day.

the beach was great, but the real highlight of the weekend was drinking actual for real coffee - actually an amazing iced espresso concoction - at this strange italian place across the street from our guesthouse. and also wine. i drank wine. it was glorious.

sadly, i managed to get the worst sunburn i’ve ever had in my life there - i’m still red & all my skin is peeling off, it’s cute. 

my birthday was last week, and it was basically adorable - ammaa bought me this huge cake to share with everyone, and made me the shirt i’m wearing in this photo. it was pretty sweet. 

my birthday was last week, and it was basically adorable - ammaa bought me this huge cake to share with everyone, and made me the shirt i’m wearing in this photo. it was pretty sweet. 

p.s.

i’m spending eight hours at a meditation center tomorrow. 

our hiking buddy, who asked me to take a photo.

our hiking buddy, who asked me to take a photo.